I give UP

NO matter what I do or say it's never enough or right. I can't even be sick...I know, I know, mom's don't get sick days and well today proved that theory right. I'm glad my kids love me and want to be with me, but when I'm being sick in the bathroom that is not a good time. For the past week I have been coughing and today I have started throwing up so I send a little fyi to James letting him know that I'm actually sick. Yeah he asks if he needs to come home sooner, but I tell him no since it was only another 30 minutes until the alloted time was over. 30 minutes is nothing...I can handle that. So he gets home and I decide to try to take a nap...Nope can't do that since the boys won't leave me alone and Phoebe wants me. So I take her to the bedroom with me, lay her down and nurse her and I try to take a nap. Again...Nope the boys are making so much noise and problems so about an hour after taking Phoebe I give up and go back out there. Later on, I am trying to decide if I want to go in or not since I would have to pay the co-pay when a cd gets stuck in a James' computer and he asks for a paperclip. Well I have no idea where a paperclip is so I ask Zach to get a push pin and see if that would work. No that didn't, then I found a safety pin and tried that, it didn't work the first time so I decided to try a needle that was thicker and longer. Well James said he was going to reboot his computer then try again, but I still wanted Zach to get the needle...now I get yelled at that I'm not listening to him, and it's just perfect that I'm sick when this happens. So then I decided. I'm not sick. I may be coughing my head off and coughing up a lung, but I'm not sick. I have to take care of my kids and everything else. Later on he says that if I'm feeling ok tomorrow then he might go get some hours in and go to his work and get the paystubs...I told him "Since I'm not sick go ahead." I am just going to deal with it. He's right and I'm wrong, there isn't anything they could do for me anyway.